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  “Yes! Why does it matter?” Dave felt bad immediately upon speaking the words as it dawned on him she didn’t have that sound of arrogance in her voice. Instead, while his brain replayed the question back in his head, he heard something else… perhaps a bit of playfulness. “I’m so-sorry. Those guys, they just-“

  “Push your buttons. No, I get it.” The smile returned after its brief vacation, which made him all the more grateful for it.

  “So, did something happen with Mr. Jacobs?”

  “What? Uncle George? Oh, no. He’s just getting a bit too old to work the full week here. And my aunt is very keen on keeping him more around the house rather than hang out with the…” she pointed to the outside. “Other nere-do-wells.”

  “Oh, good then. I mean, not good.” Always stammering and stuttering around women. Dave knew he was doing it again. Couldn’t find the correct words to say if they sat in his mouth and leapt out of their own accord. Still, through it all, she just gave him another smile that calmed him once more. “I mean, I’m glad he’s doing alright.”

  She finished ringing his last item. “Seventy-two fifty-five is your total. And I know what you meant.”

  Dave watched as she took his card and fed it through one of those old style credit card swipes that created the carbon copy, one for the store and one for him. Stacy grimaced. “I just wish he’d have something from this century for me to use. Something with a scanner and buttons.”

  * * *

  The week after the football games, the messenger changed his style. Dave began receiving the communications on his work computer, his home computer, his tablet, his phone, and anything else that could convey the missive. Every waking moment his devices would chirp or beep in excitement at a new dispatch. And they all said the same thing:

  I know the future. I know when it all ends. If you want to continue living then you must follow my instructions.

  Each time, Dave would press the delete button. Yet the notes haunted him. His dreams twisted under their influence until all he could see were those words. He couldn’t focus on work. He couldn’t focus on the few friends he actually had. He couldn’t focus on entertainment. None of it could distract him from the messages. What they might mean to him, and whether or not they contained any measure of truth.

  That was the thought that kept him awake more than any other.

  * * *

  Dave took his card back from her, signed the bottom of the store’s copy, and scooped up his bags. “Well, I guess I’ll see you next week then.” He wanted to say more to her. He wanted to find something to talk to her about. He just wasn’t that good at the small talk. For him, small talk was just a way to extract him from the conversation rather than ease into a deeper one. He shuffled along to the front entrance, trying to will something clever to say when he heard her voice again.

  “Is it true?”

  Dave turned around. “What’s that?”

  “Is it true what they said? That you think the world is going to end this weekend?”

  What was he supposed to say? Should he lie? Did it even mean anything? If things were about to go to pot, what did pissing off one more matter?

  “Yes.”

  He waited for the ridicule or the laughter or anything. He shut his eyes, not wanting to see her make fun of him. It might kill the last piece that still believed in humanity. Instead, she spoke with no hint of arrogance or irony, but as someone who was genuinely interested in the potential answer. “How is it going to happen?”

  Dave shook off the shock and cleared his throat before speaking. “Have you heard about the N-778?”

  Stacy furled her brow. “I don’t think so.”

  “It’s a meteor. Well, more than that really. We’re talking about an object in space the size of Alaska.”

  She lit up. “Wait! I know about that one. I heard it on the news late one night. Some NASA muckity-mucks have said…” she paused, and Dave could see that she was trying to make sure she got the next part correct. “That it is crossing through a trajectory in such a way that in some of the simulations they run, it collides with the Earth.”

  Now it was his turn to smile. She had it, well most of it anyway. “I’m surprised.”

  “Surprised that I know something about one of the billions of big objects in the sky?”

  “Well, yes, but only because the rest of these people I interact with wouldn’t know a tenth of what you just said.”

  “Sorry, not much to do here all day. I like the Science Channel.”

  “So do I.”

  “Plus considering the lot of them outside barely know how to tie their shoes every morning, that’s no surprise.” She cocked her head to one side. “Still, I’m going to take that as a complement.”

  “Yes.” The words flowed from Dave’s mouth in rapid succession. “And do you remember the percent chance of it actually happening?” She shook her head. “About one in one hundred trillion of crossing into our direct orbit, and then another one hundred trillion worth that it could collide with us.”

  She sighed, partially for effect. “Yet, apparently you think it is a one hundred percent chance.”

  “Well, I’ve seen it.”

  * * *

  Dave couldn’t recall the exactly moment when he broke down and answered the lingering message. The days blurred into a molasses of nothingness, as if he were a stranger in his own life. He watched that version of him go to work every day and count the minutes from the time he sat down until the minute changed to six o’clock and he could head back to his home. That cold apartment never greeted him very warmly. The television never did much to enhance his life. And now, he dared not go to the computer lest the bombardment of messages face him once more.

  He needed a change. He needed a lifeline. He needed something, but he couldn’t be sure what it was.

  So slowly, he came around. Like an addict who had a left-over bottle of liquor hidden away at the back of the pantry. First, he slid over to the chair, his fingertips hovering over the power switch. Oops, suddenly the machine was on again. As it went through its boot-up process he thought about standing back up, unplugging the machine from the wall, and being done with it. But his feet didn’t move. His ass remained in the chair. And when it came time to enter his password, his fingers did not hesitate to type them in.

  What do you want?

  I want to save your life.

  Why? Who are you? How did you know all of that stuff? Why me?

  I know when things are going to happen because for me they are the past. You are my past.

  Dave stopped typing. Did he believe it? Could he believe it? Was it possible? The person on the other end seemed to be able to read his thoughts.

  It is true. It is possible. And I have already proved it to you. Or do you require more proof?

  What did he require? If this was the truth, what would it take for him to believe? Why weren’t the scores enough?

  I need one more piece of proof.

  * * *

  “You’ve seen it with a telescope?” Dave set his groceries down on the floor and moved back over to the counter. Stacy leaned against it.

  “Yeah, I’m pretty sure I spotted it two days ago.”

  Stacy pushed back from the counter. “So if it is going to happen, why would they say that it wouldn’t?”

  “They?”

  “The NASA muckity-mucks.”

  Dave stood and stared at the woman. She noticed his look and blushed.

  “But you don’t believe them? You think they’ve got it all wrong?”

  “Well, let’s look at it this way, maybe they’re right and it is going to miss us. Certainly is a long shot that we would get hit in the first place. But if they really saw that the damn thing was going to collide with us…that’s the type of information you can never let out, because if they can’t stop it, then there is no point in having mass riots and chaos for two weeks before the event is supposed to happen.”

  Stacy stared at him with her mout
h open a little bit. After a few moments, she seemed to catch herself and regained her composure. “That’s… probably true.”

  “Yeah, so whether it is going to hit or not, we’re on our own.”

  * * *

  Within three months, Dave bought the cabin in north Georgia, quit his job, and began construction on the bunker under his house. With the money he made from the predictions, finances were no longer a concern for him. No, the only worry left was survival.

  These new days brought out a man from inside him that he didn’t know existed. In the mountain air, he felt invigorated. Without the need to wake up at some god-forsaken early hour, he now chose to be up with the sun. He filled his days with work on the bunker, and his nights reading one of the many books he’d brought up from the city with him.

  And when the day approached he was ready for it. He watched the internet and listened to the news from the safety below his cabin home. As the hours ticked by, he napped, calmer than he’d ever been before. Then when the day past into night and then into early morning again, the world continue to spin as if nothing had happened.

  The world had not ended.

  It didn’t happen.

  A pause greeted him from the other side.

  Hello. Nothing happened.

  Hmmm.

  Hmmm? That’s all you have to say? I’ve abandoned my life for this and then nothing happened? I warned the people at the shop I go to.

  Why would you do that?

  Why wouldn’t I?

  I’m only trying to warn you. I’m only preparing you. Remember that.

  But…

  I was wrong this time. These things are a little fuzzy at times. But you are prepared. And I assure you, it is going to happen.

  I don’t understand. I thought you said you knew what was going to happen and when.

  I do and I don’t. My brain isn’t what it used to be, my memory gets jumbled sometimes on the big stuff. But I know it is coming soon. That’s why you must be ready.

  * * *

  “Show me where it is.”

  Dave swallowed hard and shifted the telescope around. Stacy moved back, but not very far. He could feel her sweater brush the back of his arm. The sweetness of her breath filled his nostrils. Night overtook the day and the two stood on top of the store, her telescope focused on the clearest sky he could remember seeing. A small bit of chill in the air misted their breaths.

  “There. There it is.” Dave pulled back to allow Stacy room to see. “It’s not much to look at right now, but-“

  “Oh, no… it’s beautiful. I can see wisps of light trailing behind it.”

  “That’s pieces of it breaking off through its trip through space. Kinda like a comet.”

  “And this is the thing that is going to end the world?” This time he heard a little playfulness in her voice, but it didn’t bother him.

  “I believe so, yeah.”

  “That’s too bad.” For the first time that day, he thought he detected a hint of sadness in her voice. A slight quiver as she said the words.

  “I’ve never told this to anyone, and I know that it’s silly, but I’m actually wishing the world would just go ahead and get it over with. It’s the waiting that’s the worst.”

  Stacy pulled away from the eyepiece and smiled at him, a small amount of proof that perhaps his joke had the right kind of effect. A gust of wind whipped across the rooftop, and she moved in closer to him… for warmth. “Is this world really so bad?”

  * * *

  The world had died.

  Of course, that happened many years ago, though Dave Simms’ mind no longer could recall the exact date it happened. The years between had not been overly kind to his memories, which disappeared as if his brain was run through a colander. Still, he had a job to do. Something to help heal his heart, even if only a little bit.

  Throughout the bunker, he did his best to avoid catching a look at any reflective surface. His was a face he no longer wanted to see. Somehow, he knew exactly what he’d find. Gone would be the bit of youthful exuberance that once filled his frame. Gone would be the determination to ensure he had the right things planned out, replaced by the man sitting in front of the ancient terminal. A graying, sad, little man who struggled on his bad days not to open the sealed door.

  Not let the Armageddon in.

  This place now served as a tomb to the one living person who could still use it. Shelves lining the walls, once packed full of various foods and canned goods, held only dust. He had to make a trip to the far end, through two pairs of doors, to get to the last of his reserves. At last count, he probably had enough to make it through the end of the year.

  It was a slow death preparing to greet him. The very reason why opening the door to the outside became more enticing every day. A growing part of him wished to see what the world looked like before his retina’s burnt away.

  Beside the infernal machine’s whirling and blinking, a strained effort to keep going, was a lone portrait from the Before. Of all the objects he could have brought below with him, he cursed and celebrated his decision to bring this item. The red-haired woman smiles at him, a small amount of cotton candy stuck to the tip of her nose. Those eyes focused on a younger version of him. Somehow, she was in love with him in a way that he did not know could be possible. At the bottom there was a date, slightly smudged from his fingers. It marked those last days where he…where they were truly happy. Alongside it sat the last newspaper he ever picked up proclaiming the end of all things. Mass chaos… death… fear. The dates were only a few days apart.

  Dave settled into the chair, his fingers the only part of his body that still moved with a reckless abandon. Their tips pounded away at the top of the keyboard. He had stopped looking at his fingers a long time ago, but it would do him little good to bother with such an action now. Most of the keys were blank, worn away through his furious use over the years.

  Time was all he had since the End came. Dave knew it would be over, and he hoped that he managed to steer his ancient doppelganger in the correct direction for once.

  I met a girl.

  The words came in pieces across the screen. Dave shook his head at no one in particular and fired a missive back. He wanted to scream at the man on the other end of the line. To grab ahold of him and shake some sense into him.

  We talked about this. You can’t make personal connections.

  No, I know, I know. You’ve told me not to get attached, and I haven’t, but…

  Dave found himself nodding. Finally, some of the words he’d been telling the man had seemed to sink into his skull.

  I’m sorry, but that doesn’t really do much for me though. I’m not sure what you want me to do. You’re not right.

  More anger. More disbelief. Had he really been this stubborn so long ago?

  What?

  I’ve lived this way for the past three years. The only people I seem to talk to are you and the few who mill around the store.

  That is what you have to do in order to survive what’s to come. You can’t allow your emotions to cloud your judgment. You’ve come so far… and it is ending soon.

  You know what? Those people in the store are right. You’ve repeated that same thing repeatedly for all this time. And nothing happens. You’re never right about any of it. The comet missed, the flash-fires didn’t happen. The moon is still shining on us from above. Whole. There were no grand solar flares that emitted EMP and wiped us all out. No mass of lightning strikes. Nothing!

  I know. I can’t figure it out either. My brain is still a little bit scrambled, but I know that it is soon. You just have to have a little more patience.

  No, I don’t. I’m just the idiot for believing you again and again. For building this shelter. For leaving my life and my job and any semblance of a real future… and for what? Because I’m too damn scared of life?

  No! To survive. To find a way to go on living. That girl is only going to haunt you. She’ll be the one you can’t save. She’ll be the one t
hat makes you think about ending it all every day of your miserable life and the one who convinces you to carry on in spite of those feelings.

  You say that I would only lose them. That I have to worry about surviving. That I must worry about myself. How would you even know? What does it matter to you?

  Dave reread the screen. Since his first contact with his younger version, he’d managed not to answer that question directly. For some reason he worried that it would change things if his younger self knew whom it was communicating with him. He had his reasons. A list of them he long since used for kindling. Now… now, he couldn’t remember one of them.

  It doesn’t matter who I am, only that I am trying to help you.

  I’m done. I’m finished. I’m done listening to you. I can’t live like this anymore. By myself, waiting for something that may or may not happen. So what if you are right? From now on, don’t try and contact me anymore.

  But the end—

  I don’t care. If it happens, then it happens. But I’m not going to hide anymore in my dungeon.

  Don’t do this. Dave! Listen to me!

  The cursor blinked, waiting to be put to use again. Dave watched and waited for a response. He screamed at the monitor and picked up the keyboard, ready to launch it across the bunker, and then thought better of it.

  An hour, then two, and then four passed him by, the machine’s whine becoming the only noise in the room. It threatened to wash away his thoughts with its anger. Yet he didn’t move. He couldn’t move from this spot in front of the computer. He didn’t dare to—

  A last whirl followed by a hiss. The hiss gave way to a series of pops. Those pops crackled in rapid fashion echoing off the metal sides of the tower until they climaxed into a firework finale. The monitor flashed once and clicked off, a small trail of smoke emanating from the top.

  The whole process only took a minute. But in that time, Dave saw his own life flash before his eyes. He wasn’t dying, but with this last link to the outside world… even if it had been to an ancient world that no longer existed…even then it was something to look forward to every day.